pretty

The paint fumes are getting to me...well kinda. I am painting a mural on the walls of my old room at my parents house. For those of you who know, I moved out of there monthes ago, so my room is kinda bare. Oh yea, I have to move back in with my parents due to a medical condition affecting my nervous system. Stupid nerves. Stupid doctors. I think it will work out for now, as long as my mom does not get in my business and go digging throgh all my stuff again. grrrr...privacy and trust are huge issues with her and my family, so yea. She goes nuts because I am out with my friends(who dont do drugs, drink, party, or anything crazy) and I am 19. It is the MOVIES for christsake.

So mural, yea it is of Mangas that I have grew up with like Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon, Peach Girl, FLCL, and Paradise Kiss. I finished sketching the BSSM, on the first wall, and it looks very nice. I found this neat little trick to remove pencil sketchings, but keep the pen outline and have a fresh(ie:clean) coat of paint over it. I watered down the acrylic white wall paint that I had and the pen shows right through as a faded blue line, but no pesky pencil markings. hooray! I am going to work on it some more, bai! HA! chipper...

messed up in the head

I am going to have a horrible rant. I really suck at putting my thoughts down, so bear with me

this bitch is driving me crazy
i see the stains on the walls
and they remind me that
i need to slit your throat
watch it spill onto my shirt
i have these crazy thoughts
of killing people in their sleep
i painted over them twice
she keeps clawing at them
touch him again
go ahead i keep count
i can WAIT
for you to f*ck up again
i have forever
oh wait
you do not
i will make sure of it
i thrive on your tears
but live to taste slick
of my knife against your skin
my hand on your cheek
but dont be frightened
just remember that you
look beautiful
when you cry

mew

I am staring at possibly the cutest thing in the world right now. It is a 6 week old kitten sleeping in front of my computer speaker. It is white with a big grey spot on its head and grey tail. His name is Spike. He slept in my bed with me last nite. It is soooo cute, but he is a little dumb. Ru and Gome are pissed...