just forget me, its that simple

excuse me but there is no excuse for your childishness. i watch myself from afar and see all my mistakes. i had so much fun without you, and you did not even acknowledge me half the time. you are not good for me, and i just have to recognize myself and my needs. just think of all the happy times, and move on. learn from this and one day you will see.

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maybe if you listened to what i say, it would all be clear about what you must do. maybe if you heared the words, weather it be said, sung or screamed in your presence, you would understand.

portfolio

ACK! no light blue paint...oh well. i am putting together my portfolio and it is so hard to choose anything good. most of my art is either are not good enough, or lacking in something. i can barely choose any up to par, so i am just going to redo many drawings and paintings. if i get around to it, i will post some art on deviantart.com. i will do that before i go to work tomorrow actually. clicky for mah artzors!

was that today or yesterday or last week...

I have been having some real trouble remembering things lately. I keep thinking it is still like october and it really is throwing me off. I said that I came by yesterday, but now that I think about it, I do not think it was yesterday, but it was monday. or was it? either i get the dates mixed up, or i think that i did something but it was a while ago. and then people think i am lying to them, which is never a good thing. all these days lately are running together and it is difficult to put it into a timeline. very frustrating